Celebrity Hater

I’m searching for a word denoting someone who hates celebrities.  I’m someone who jumps to hate or not mind people who are loved & held high & celebrated as special. But when I do get to know them, see them for what they are truly, no one can love them so much like me.  They become special for ever and ever.  Etched in my heart as special. While the  get to knowing them takes some time, there is usually a moment which changes everything. 

April 22 1998 mid night when Sachin slammed 143 to take India to the finals against Australia. He looked like a Lion that day. I was supposed to be sleeping but secretly watched the game. Couldn’t  scream as it would wake up others. But I never slept that night. Probably felt high for the first time in my life.. he became my hero that day. 

Just like that in my 12th grade,  I always knew she was my manaseega mentor, but had to suppress that feeling cos everyone around me bragged about her. But when I knew she was in an accident, I could not control. I almost became a detective. I still can’t figure out what and I how became a detective  to find her address and built the guts to go see her. Probably I did something that no one else did. That’s why she let me in her very secretive life.  For the introvert I’am, I can’t believe I did that. Next few years gave me memories which are good for a lifetime. I had to run away from the world I was in. Now I can’t find her.  The rest of the story is for an another day. 

The world is crazy about SRK. I hated him. Until I saw Devdas. The passion for the profession, the art, the all in he gave in this saga earned him my respect.  I’m not his fan, but I always look him with respect. 

Next up, last in… I still don’t know why that person became special. Was it the show? Or the trust? Or just the dreams?  or what was it… socially weird, introverted beings can be seen egoistic though. Immaturity is a crime.  Makes you hate celebrities, alienates from the dear ones, leads you to erratic decisions( we will discuss another time), but none of this makes the celebrities wrong. Once special they are always special!  

Dumb and Dumber

 Let’s go out for dinner?

Hey there is this Chinese place and it’s awesome…Hungry?

Hey want Ice cream? Before or after dinner? 

I want you to try this. I’ll take you there. 

So many one liners rehearsed a thousand times but never delivered once… fearing a single word -No

நான் தோற்றுப்போவேன் என்று எண்ணியே என் தேர்வையெல்லாம் ஒற்றிவைக்கிறேன் !

I was dumb then, dumber now! 

The Journey - பயணம்

He did not like her

She never minded him

He never cared for her

She never had any regards for him

One cold November night changed everything

He started to know her

She befriended him

He admired her

She gave time for him

He adored her

She gave him space

He lived in his own fantasy world

She marched in her real world

He was immature

She was super mature

He lost her 

She (may be) never missed him

He was confused 

She was clear 

He couldn’t take it

She was happy  

He made numerous mistakes

She lived a life

He tried to die

IT stopped him

He betrayed everyone

They all  forgave him

He moved away

She moved on & on

He FROZE

She rose

He lived

She lived

He knows 

She doesn’t know

He loves

She doesn’t know

He loves

She is around

He loves 

She knows

He adores

She knows

He admires

She knows

He is blind

She knows

He is dreaming

As always she knows

He might fail again

She knows

He will be hurt again

She knows

He will be alone again

She knows

He is still immature

She knows

He thinks she doesn’t know

She knows

He is just not worth the time

She knows

He is not realistic

She knows

He doesn’t know her at all

She knows

He has a life

She knows

He is aware of what she knows

She knows

And he loves her more 

May be she knows

He wants her to know

Does she know?

He knows she knows

What’s in for her?

Nothing but still he wants her to know

May be she knows

This is beyond the usual 

May be she knows

This is beyond social

May be she knows

One fine day..:

She says ‘Dude wake up’ 

Like never ending waves he comes

She knows

கரைகள் ஓய்வை விரும்பினாலும் அலைகள் விடுவதில்லை

ஆலைகள் ஓய்வை விரும்பினாலும் முத்துகள் விடுவதில்லை 

முத்து,  மாலை ஆனால், என்றும் எப்பொழுதும்…

 #kavalan meets kal ho na ho

Red & White

 He was simple and white

She was glowing and red

They were two different extremes

One fine day the universe brought them together to the same table 

The whole world said they were made for each other;

The world envied, and hence they had to part ways. 

But the universe knows Red and White is a very good match. 

So it made them be together in a parallel universe.

Red & White together again! 

Survive

 Psychology says that if you are constantly thinking about someone without any communication then it means that you are on their mind too. 

Hard to believe but that’s how I survive. 

The power of 3

 By the time I was 23 my life had encountered these 3 women. Directly or indirectly they had the maximum influence in my life. I have admired, adored and yearned to have a special spot for them in my life and a unique space in their life for me. I have waited to get closer to them, travel with them and be there forever. They have inspired me, made me feel good, and set me apart. They have made me feel above all others around me. I’m good beyond normal because of their influence. My admiration, love and respect for those ladies will be there for ever and ever. Universe, creator or fate got me very close all to all of them. I had special access, personal access and much more with them. The very thought that I was closer to them and just not another person in their life made me feel elated. The time we spent was very special and personal. In all three cases, I was separated from them. In one way or the other migration to foreign nation for work, spouse or family played critical role in the relationship not continuing. But I have to blame myself too. I could have made some meaningful efforts to sustain the connect, could have handled my stressors better, could have been more mature enough, all said and done, I miss them all. I think, about them every single day. I feel gifted to have had a very special association with them. And soon somehow I want them all back in my life. I dunno how, but I yearn for it. 

2nd

There is always this obsession on the

First born

First school

First bicycle

First job

First drink

First Bike

 First car and 

First Love and then there is the rest of the world