The Journey (Search) Continues

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The train pulls into Chidambaram station. As it slows down into the platform, Kadhir jumps off the train as sleek as a professional thief would do! Right after the jump his mind raced to find who ‘SHE’ was. He has never been touched by a girl just by her presence so strong, yet so silent. He ran along with the train back to the compartment looking for the passenger chart. It wasn't too tough locating the compartment and the first class coupe where he met her. The chart and the coupe in which he boarded had 2 names. 2 ladies aged 63 and 23. He knew who he was looking for.  But then he had to run, stay away from light, from people, maybe even from himself. His complex, his own state made him run. 

After 2 yrs: 

Times have changed. His run is over. No one cares about him anymore. He is a free man now. Free from What? We will discuss that later. His only problem is sleeplessness. Sleepless nights due to a menace. A menacing silence, menacing calm, menacing loneliness, menacing dreams of that calm face, the peace she spared him in the train haunted him. He wanted to meet her, know her, feel her, hold her, kiss her on her forehead, he wanted to mention to her that she was the reason for his sanity, any hope of serenity in his life. In his entire life, he just encountered her that one night, but his entire life now is only around her. Who is she, where is she? No idea but he knows her name! The train was bound to Chidambaram, somehow she is connected to Chidam. He knew in his heart, that's where she would land. 

Kadhir went in search of her to Chidambaram in the same train, not in the first class coupe this time, but just in the second class  seater which he could afford. All he knew was that she is a nurse and her name. Upon reaching Chidambaram, he had a game plan to find her. Check in all hospitals about nurses and sooner or later he hoped to find her.  Easy peasy right? But it turned out much tougher than he thought. Hospital over hospital; enquiry over enquiry, day after day, week after week; It was almost a month since his search started, but nothing positive turned up. He was losing hope, and most importantly, he was getting hungry. He had no income, no savings, all he had was an empty pocket and empty stomach. With no way out, and no mind to abandon his dear mission, he deviated a bit to find a source of income to keep him alive. He was skilled (except in deception) enough to secure a job. But he could drive. Cars, Auto, Bike anything with a motor, he loved driving. But in this new town, who would trust him with a job? Being the guilty introvert he was, he had no way to find a job. One last attempt before leaving town, he built courage to boldly ask help (he has never seeked help before). He walked into a Bhai’s house where many Auto’s lined up. He walked up to him, and just said “I don't have any ID proof, but I will be very loyal. Can you give me an Auto to drive? I will pay you rent every single day. Won't miss a day. Can you please help me?”  The Bhai looked at him, gave a smirky smile and said “you look like my son, take the 3rd Auto there, give me Rs.500 everyday. The day you are not able to pay me, leave the Autio from where you took, don't try to meet me, just leave”. Kadhir was awe struck. He did not know how to react, but hope filled him in everywhere. Every cell of his being felt rejuvenated. 

With a auto driver profession and mask in hand, kadhir continued his search for her around hospitals with hope of meeting her one day. His trips were all centered around hospitals. Pick up, drop off location did not matter.. He will just come around a hospital and park, looking for nurses 🙂Funny job, but it was deeply meaningful for him,his whole purpose of life! Fate or luck, whatever you call it, one unassuming day, he saw her. His own “her”, leaving a hospital and walking straight to the bus stop which was just near his auto stand. Mission accomplished, life’s meaning met, he found her, his —--------- .  But what will he do next? He is a raw, unpolished piece of mediocre thief. Auto driver is his first decent identity. How will he approach her, what will he say? How will he introduce himself? What are his options, what are his next steps? But he can't die this way, with no conclusion, there is certainly some way out there. After all, now he knows her name and place.  Adhirai, Adhirai  from Chidambaram! 

Anything is possible, let's just wait and watch what unfolds. The journey definitely has an End!

"इसका दम टूट जाए, फिर भी उसकी याद हटेगी नहीं।"